Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Break from the story for the CLOMID MONSTER


Well I don't know if it's a good thing that this round of clomid is making me turn into a ZOMBIE BITCH or not but boy oh boy what a ride this last week had been.  People always said, "Oh your going on clomid, good luck", "I am not going near you for a while",  "I feel so bad for your husband".  My response was, "Oh it wasn't that bad, I felt fine.  Well not this time!!!  The first couple of days I was okay, just a space cadet.  I forgot my keys, my phone, I would have forgot my head if it wasn't attached.  Then the ZOMBIE BITCH (which from here on out I will refer to as ZB) came out.  I couldn't form sentences, all I wanted to do was lay in bed.  I felt SOOO overwhelmed.  My poor Hubby, of course got the brunt.  He asked if I could bring him his coffee and I flipped out.  I screamed that I couldn't handle it and he was asking too much of me.  WOW, what a crazy lady!  After screaming,  I threw an extension cord at his head, like a 3 year old and ran in the bedroom to cry.  What was taking over my body?  This was not me!!  Thankfully,  my amazing Hubby just apologized and hugged me.  He deserves a medal.  He apologized for asking me to bring him his drink, what a saint!  Thank goodness it was the weekend when the ZB was at it's height.  I don't think I could have dealt with clients on this junk.

Luckily, I spent the weekend with my Sister getting pampered for her birthday (I love when I get to enjoy the birthday present along with the BDAY girl).  We started the day with Honey-dips (an amazing spa service EVERYONE must try) and shampoo blow-dries.  Our blow-dries were quite interesting, in a bad way (being hairdressers I guess we are a little more picky) but we got a good laugh about it.  Basically, my Sister's hair/bangs were totally 90's out and my hair was a flat frizzy mess.  Next time we will skip the shampoo blow-dry unless it's someone we trust!  Next stop was a fun day in Old Sac.  I was able to distract my mind enough to enjoy the day.  Thank you Sister for helping me get through it, I love you so much.  I  don't know how I would deal with any of this without my Hubby and Family!   I am so blessed in so many ways and feel guilty being so sad because we can't  have a child.  I have to remember I am blessed and I need to focus on those blessings more.  BUTTTTT, can we please have a baby too!!!! :) 

I think the ZB is at bay (for now) so we are just focused on our IUI coming up.  Fingers crossed and hopefully we didn't go through the hell in vain.   

1 comment:

  1. Thank you for a great weekend...(Shes too good to me!!) I loved my 90's bangs and all. Glad I could help distract you for most of the day:) Your such a strong amazing women. Im glad to call you not only my sister, but my best friend..Love you!!